Grace. the full meaning of the word continues to mystify me. but the question came to me this morning and it keeps nagging at me. you believe that it is by God’s grace that you are drawn in to him and that it is by his grace that your failings are no longer counted against you. you have received, you believe, a great grace from God who is holy and perfect. so, why do you think that everyone else around you has to work for it, especially when it involves you extending it to others? why do you make everyone around you work for it, earn it from you (then is it grace that you are extending or control?)? I believe that my sins are all forgiven and that, in God’s sight at least, I am clean and cleared of all guilt, yet I hold the sins of others against them and point the finger at them, in a way, ensuring that they remain ‘hooked by a state of gracelessness’. why do I behave like this when a holy and perfect God is able to act with great graciousness towards me; when God levels every barrier to make his way to me; when he stops at absolutely nothing? why do I categorise people at different levels of deserving? could it be that the full meaning of the word ‘grace’ continues to mystify me because I don’t really want to understand it? because if I did, then I would have to be willing to be a bit more forgiving, a bit more flexible, a bit less judgemental? maybe, if I really wanted to practice grace towards others, I might have to be a little less obsessed with myself and a little more sacrificing? my, in God’s language, doesn’t grace sound a lot like love?