“Everything is possible for one who believes” and so it is. so, I believed, and nothing changed. so, I believed even harder and nothing changed. so, I prayed and fasted, and nothing changed. so, I pleaded and bargained, and nothing changed. so, I became angry and I threatened, and nothing changed. so, I complained and revolted, and nothing changed. so, I was silent and watched as everything got worse and each one of my fears was realised. everything was lost. everything was gone. everything was covered in grief. and on my knees my head in the dust, I wept … ‘but I believed’ … I whimpered … ‘and nothing changed’ … I cried … and God said to me … ‘but see …I have changed you … see … I have made you more like me’.